Perhaps the "alone" was the most important word. Not lonely. Alone. There was a difference. Lonely was a wound. Alone was a room you could furnish however you wanted. She climbed out of the pool just before 1 AM. Water dripped from her hair and clothes, leaving dark spots on the concrete. She grabbed the towel she had left on a lounge chair—a faded blue towel from a beach vacation when she was twelve—and wrapped it around her shoulders.
The cold climbed up her calves, her knees, her thighs. She gasped—a sound too loud in the quiet—and then forced herself to breathe slowly. You’re fine , she told herself. You’re fine. This is just water. This is just night. This is just you. Emily pushed off from the edge and let herself drift toward the deep end. The pool was small by most standards—maybe thirty feet long, fifteen wide—but at night, with the trees overhead blocking out pieces of the sky, it felt like an ocean. She lay on her back, arms spread, ears submerged, and stared up at the stars. emily 18 alone in the pool at nightrar
Emily, 18, alone in the pool at night.